druffine | Friday has no meaning anymore

Since my graduation on the 21st of December 05 I am jobless. I had one job interview so far but they took another candidate. It's pretty bad to be in competition with 2 people I spent most of my time with the last 3 years and 3 months. We even went into the same class, lived in the same dorm.

I've been to the "Job Agency" (<- that's supposed to be the new and modern image of the damn employment office). They told me to bring about a thousand documents to prove my former employments. I sent them to my former employers but it takes time and I won't get any money from the Job Agency before I give them in... The Social Welfare Office told me they couldn't pay me money because I had an entitlement at the Job Agency which comes first. Great. I wasted a lot of time at offices the last weeks. I wonder if I didn't have a boyfriend with a job... Who'd pay the rent?

I talked to the Job Management Center of my former employer who still tries to find a job for me. Maybe there will be something free in February. I have to call them next Wednesday because right now the person who is responsible for the employment is ill. And what if she is still ill next Wednesday? What if she's ill for the whole next year? Won't there be any new employments and no firing?

I feel pretty much useless and helpless and lifeless... I'm nearly through with my whole appartment, I even scrubbed the ceiling of the bathroom yesterday! I feel grey. And all days are the same: free. Friday has no meaning anymore because all my days are free, I don't have to wait for the weekend for freetime. I always have freetime. Wonderful? Well, normally yes but not if you need money and don't know if you get a job again.

My boyfriend and I stopped smoking on the 1st of January. I'm really proud of him (and me, of course) for doing this and doing it together.

Friday has no meaning anymore

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