druffine | GRRRR

My voice is still gone. I am a croaking, screeching, squeecky something for about 3 days now and it frustrates me to no end. I don't believe it'll come back tomorrow Christmas-surprise-like so I will be at my mom's with all relatives and I won't even be able to defend myself propperly when they start the yearly break-the-kids-try-outs. Yay.

I am writing on an entry about the big Christmas party we had at the university on Tuesday and at which I was with no voice and my three crushes and what happened. Weird thing that, going to a party and not being able to talk. I got a lot of hugs and well, a lot of mocking comments too. I felt even more outside than normally. Really weird. I think I am traumatizised and have to write fanfic about it... lol.

One prof gratulated me to the decorations my team made, one blushed prettily when I told him I would be on my knees most of the evening anyway, meaning of course that I was part of the clean-up team, another prof kinda ran away from me when I wispered to him to play his prof-bonus-card to get the music changed as he looked so unhappy about it. I swear I did not touch my lips to his ear shell on purpose. Even if he is sweet.

Great, my bro just called, telling me he wasn't able to go shopping with me today and that he would spend Christmas at his girlfriend's house. Yay. So I am alone at my parent's and when I manage to escape I am alone at my home with my cats with nothing to eat.

Fuck - it's freezing outside, raining and snowing for hours, it's all dark and slimey and I don't want to fucking go out now and get me something to eat. It's fucking ice outside, slippery as hell and I feel like death warmed over at least twice already and can't even cry for help when I fall on my ass and break my bones.

I'd go tomorrow but nooooo - bloody Christmas then and ever shop closes at noon. GRRRR! I hate Christmas.

GRRRR

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