druffine | A Night's sleep

A little late, a little drunk, a lot tired. A mostly true explanation for sleeping in your bed. Hiding the trembling with exhausted clumsiness, falling in your arms and nearly drowning in your warmth. One arm lifts and the other pulls, bringing our bodies together like two puzzle pieces. Forbidden thoughts of belonging.

Turning away, head and heart. At least, it was worth the try. Darkness hides the longing looks and the movements that stop half-way. Too tender, too much meaning. All that’s left then, the sparkling of lust, silver against the night. Could have been tears. Weren’t.

How can you… suddenly all thought leaves, completely embraced, stripped naked, body and soul, warmed and held strongly. No words, but your body lies to me, tells me of love and fulfilment, anchors me. Letting it all fall away for a second or two. Safe for a moment and then tumbling again, falling faster than ever before. No ground to reach. Afraid for a couple of heartbeats before accepting the new level of limitless loneliness.

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Beautiful post. Hope all is well?

Aaaah how good to hear from you... I know I've been a bad friend, should have written you but somehow couldn't find the patience. Forgive me?

I'm okay, just a bit anti-xmas-frustrated and melancholy. No worries, but thanks for caring.

*hugs*

*L* Lord, sometimes that holiday is more trouble than it works.

Hey, no worries about the other! I COMPLETELY understand getting busy/overwhelmed...

Hope you manage to slide through to January unscathed.

That was beautiful and sad. I hope you are okay.

Thank you for the compliment and the concern. I am pretty much okay, just a bit needy I guess. Exams and stuff are slowly working me in a panicked frenzy and I try to keep calm but somehow I miss something/someone to anchor myself on, you know, the safety net. These exams will decide how my life will go, no second chances, no joke and it's a strangulating thought/feeling.

*hugs* I totally empathize, since I am in finals hell as well. I'm sure you'll do well. You're very smart!

Ack the was beautiful and heartbreaking - You're card is on it's way and should be there early this week. Yet, at times I'd love to be alone - between the kids (3), the cat, the dog, the gerbil, the rat and the hamster I haven't been alone in the last 15 years. And why is it kids want to start the most important conversation when I'm in the bathroom or the shower? Sigh - hugs to you and warm thoughts of you this Christmas. Cindy Lee

Oh wow - you've got a busy household, don't you.
I've got two cats, Mona and Lisa, I'm not really alone.. just sometimes I wish there was somebody who'd be really part of my life, who cares if I pass or fail my exams and stuff.

And why is it kids want to start the most important conversation when I'm in the bathroom or the shower?
I guess they feel that you for once have nothing to do but being in the bathroom or shower and they think you can completely concentrate on them then, you're not busy with anything else. *lol*

Did I send you my address already? I think I grow old, I remember trying to remember to send you a mail but I can't remember doing it. *frowns*

Thanks for the hugs and warm thoughts, as it seems my brother will spend Christmas with me - should be really relaxed and pleasant for me that way. *smiles*

My poor babe, sorry you're lonely and things seem crazy with you. I'm sure it'll sort itself out.

When you say your brother is spending Christmas with you, do you mean that you're not going to your mum and dad's place, cos yay if that's true. You might actually enjoy it for once. Hope so anyway.

Hugs and cuddles.
Joolz x

Hey Joolz, babe, love you. I am so sorry we didn't have time to chat much this weekend. With my system reset and my bro there all the time and then a visit to my grandma I was too busy and stressed to get on. Sorry.

Tonight is a party at the dorm again, casual monday evening getting drunk and have fun. I am looking forward to it even if I am nearly too tired to hold myself upright but I'll enjoy this until anybody will be way too busy with the exams in January to do anything else but studying.

I miss you and promise you a long chat next weekend. Hugs. Love and everything.

Yours.

How heartbreakingly beautiful.

::hugs you::

P.S. - That button you asked for? I'm so, so, so sorry it's taking so long. Everything's just been a bit hectic lately. My goal is to send it to you by Wednesday - I hope that works for you. Once again, I'm sorry. I really hate having to make you wait. :(

Oh great you liked this little "real life ficlet".

Don't worry bout the button, I am really looking forward to it but I can wait because I know it will be very very beautiful.

Hope you're good and looking forward to have a nice Christmas. *hugs*

A Night's sleep

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