druffine | Not much

Well,

not much to tell. I now have a fabulous beta => Joolz, who regretably refuses to get an lj. I so wish she would, because not only does she good beta work, she also writes pretty good Spander.
My muse is still somewhere in between creative and lazy, my updates are so slow and I am sorry. I just don't hurt enough inside to get her back in overdrive. But I am sure, it won't take long and I will be again nearly choked with longing and loneliness. So, just be patient.

Read kyrieane 's fic "Hard to breathe", it's damn good.

Today and tomorrow and then I am on holiday until June 2nd! Yay. And yes, I will get some writing done in that time. Maybe I even get to clean my kitchen before it grows to a horror zoo.

Ahhh, my cats. Yes, yesterday Lisa pushed over my giantic cup of cocoa. No big, you would think, well yeah, it hit my GGA/Unnamed series 100 pages handwritten script.
I cried. I really did.
I grabbed my cat and pressed her against my chest and told her how I want to rip her in pieces or drown her in cocoa and that's when I felt a big bump under her chin. Damn. What is this? Not again. My cats were not ill for nearly five month! What is it now? I can't afford anymore vet fees but I will pay for it, sure. My cats are like my kids and if I have to stay hungry the month, I do if there is a chance that it helps them.
Yeah, my script is unreadable/unusable. The pages are brown and glued together and the ink is washed away.
Who cares? I certainly don't and maybe I should be grateful that it happened so I found out about the bump and maybe I can do something against it. I just hope it's not some cancer or ... Damn. Why me?

My grandma asked me to pay her the money back I lent from her a few weeks ago. She wants to give it to my brother who just for fun crashed his car. Yes, my brother did on purpose just for fun crash his car and no, he has no money to pay it, my/our relatives will do it 'cause he is such a cute boy. Pride of the family. Son and all that crap.
Where do I get the money for her and more important for my cats???

You see, my problems are growing again, the frustration increases and soon my muse will be happy again, basking and bathing in pain. *smiles*

K, that's for now.
Druffine

*Look on the bright side is suicide
Lost eyesight I'm on your side
Angel left wing, right wing, broken wing
Lack of iron and/or sleeping

Protector of the kennel
Ecto-plasma, Ecto-skeletal
Obituary every birthday
Your scent is still here in my place of recovery!"