FIC: The Still Unnamed Series --- Part C 23

[druffine]

The Still Unnamed Series


manip by vampirellabites

Xander, one of the Slayer's sidekicks is burdened with Spike, the
newly chipped vampire. One evening things get ugly in the Harris'
household...

Pairing: Spike/Xander
Rating: eventually NC-17, no specific hints
Season: BtVS 4-ish then AU
Status: WiP
Length:
Part A: about 13,000 words
Part B: about 22,000 words
Part C: about 1,500 words / chapter
Warnings: some domestic violence, language, violence
Disclaimer:The plot is mine, the boys are not. *cries*
Beta by: joolzmp7 Thank you soooo much, babe.

Also thanks to little_tenshi for encouragement


Finally the first Chapter of Part C: REVELATIONS

Under the cuttag you'll find Chapter 23 of the Series. If you haven't read the previous parts, you can find them here on my website.


!!!DON'T SPOIL IT FOR YOURSELF, read this chapter NOT before the other chapters!!!






We left off in chapter 22 here:

~ Xander ~

The bathroom door clicks shut behind me and I turn the lock.
The last thing I see is Spike sitting on the floor, looking at me hurt and confused, holding his bleeding forearm with his other hand.
What have I done?



Chapter 23


~ Spike ~
I look down on my forearm. Bite marks. Human bite marks. What the bloody hell did Harris think? I clench my jaws together so hard my teeth hurt. I can't believe he bit me. Doesn't he know that. No, of course he doesn't know. But… fuck it. Damn it. Bloody fucking hell. Have to get them off of me. Have to get rid of them. Have to…

I cock my head to the side when a loud sobbing sound comes from inside the bathroom.
Xanny is crying. Poor, poor Xanny. Fucking deserves it. He bit me. ME! So why the hell is *he* crying? Huh? Huh?!

I stand up and go over to the kitchen isle. The water is cold as it runs over the underside of my arm, washing away the blood, spiralling pinkish down the drain. Little Xanny has strong teeth, strong jaws. The wound is deep and neat. I can sodding count his teeth! This will take some time to heal. Human bites are nasty buggers on vampire skin.


~ Xander ~
I can't help it. I am crying. Damn, I fucked up big time. What have I done? Why the hell did I bite Spike? Like some animal I clamped down my teeth and … fuck it felt good.

I can still taste the blood. Oh fuck.

I lift my arm and wipe my mouth with the back of my hand, stare down at the red smear of Spike's blood on my skin. Have to get it off. Have to clean it away.
God. What is wrong with me? Why do I always fuck up the good things in my life? I sob louder while I clean away the blood with my tongue. I don't care if he hears me crying. Don't care if he thinks I am a baby. I feel like crying. Long and hard. Like the swipes of my tongue that make the ruby liquid disappear. Spike tastes good.
Oh fuck!

Thought I was free of the hyena. Thought it was gone. But something changed and I have to tell Spike. Hah. As if he doesn't know. But I have to talk to him. Have to… explain what I can't understand myself.
This is fucking blood I am licking. Spike's blood now. Some random blood down at the bar and … oh god. What is wrong with me?


~ Spike ~
I lick at the wound while I get out blood from the fridge. Bless who ever, at least it's human again. Any more pig's and I’d get sick from the smell alone.

Damn, what the bloody hell made Xander bite me?
I relive the evening in my mind.
I brought him to the bar, he worked, I came back to dust that vamp that spilled blood over Xan.
Fuck.

Xan licked blood from his arm down at the bar.
We danced, we went upstairs, Treckle was there. Xanny 'snapped', kind of, when he stared at… or when Treck stared at Xan. Bloody hell. Oh bloody friggin' hell.

It was Treckle's influence. I thought he was harmless, only got part of the gift. Only reading, not influencing people as his mother could. Hell. What will I do with him? He is too weak to control that much of…
I suppress the urge to spin around when the bathroom door opens. I am still angry. Even if it was not Xan's fault.


~ Xander ~
I am afraid but I am not a coward. I have to apologize to Spike. I can't hide here forever. If I could, I would. Staying in the bathroom means staying in the apartment, staying here. I don't want to leave. I know I have to. Spike won't put up with that much crap from me. Fuck. I want to stay. Want to stay here. Want to stay with Spike. Want to see him laugh and wake up with him and dance with him and… OVER. Nobody to blame but myself. Should have told Spike about this craving the first time I felt it or the second time – not days later – not when it's too late. Please Spike? Please… please what? I stuff my fist in my mouth so as not to sob out loud again.

I open the bathroom door carefully, just a slit, and look for Spike. He is at the kitchen isle. His back is rigid with coiled anger. Wonder if he is angry enough that he vamped out.
He slams the microwave shut so hard I jump. Oh fuck oh fuck ohfuckohfuck.

I feel so bad, I don't dare to get on my feet, so I slowly crawl over to Spike on all fours. He does nothing to acknowledge my careful approach but I know he knows I am there.

I reach him and press my cheek against his thigh just when the microwave beeps.
Spike gets the mug out and makes a step to the side – away from me – turns around and leans against the counter. Out of the corner of my eye I see him raising the mug to his lips and drinking the blood.

I don't dare to really look up, don't dare to meet his eyes. I don't know what to say or to do so I just close the physical distance between us, and again, lean my cheek against his thigh. The muscles in his leg twitch and tighten but he doesn't move away, doesn't say or do anything at all other then slowly sipping his blood from the mug.


~ Spike ~
I hardly hide the surprise when he doesn't stand up. I see his reflection in a pan, see him crawling forward, head down, wary but determined to.. I sniff.. submit? Fuck. Why does the boy know this but not the most obvious rule. You just don't bite a vampire, it's like someone with a death wish, a fledge taunting a Master. I grit my teeth, try to ignore how hard his show of submission makes me, his degradation to more animalistic ways of communication.

He reaches me and I ignore him, ignore his warm face pressing against my thigh. My cock twitches and I don't want him to see, I turn away, the beeping of the microwave gives me an excuse to step away from him but it doesn't matter: the scent of rejection and hopelessness fills the air. Right, let him suffer, as if he hasn't suffered enough already in his short life. Pffft. I am such a ponce.

The next time he presses against me, I don't move away. His warmth feels good against me and, for a second, I allow myself to daydream, imagine him nuzzle in my crotch, sniffing and then licking and sucking through the fabric till I give him permission to take me out, take me in that pouty mouth of his. I don't think he would even deny it me now, he is so desperate to stay.

I look down at the body – not to the boy, he is beautiful like this, kneeling at my feet, silently begging for approval.


~ Xander ~
Through my cast-down lashes, I look up. His face is contradicted with anger and pleasure. He ignores me for long minutes. When he finally acknowledges my presence with a sad look of gleaming golden eyes, I have to look down again, ashamed.

He puts the glass on the counter forcefully, nearly slams it down and from the dregs in there, the last quarter of the glass, tiny splatters of blood rush up like a fountain.

"It's not your fault." He tells me. In my mind I snort at him. Everything is my fault. I am always the one to blame and I deserve it. It's just my nature to fuck things up. Anyway, I stay silent and don't move.

"If I had known that Treckle has the ability to manipulate the feelings…" He trails off as I shake my head vigorously.

"It wasn't him." It's my fault and I take full responsibility – doesn't matter how much I dislike Treckle. I fuck things up – I take the consequences.

"Xander, these things are tricky. The power of manipulation lies in the ability to do it without the other noticing that he is actually being manipulated."

"Right. But I *know* it wasn't him."

"What do you mean?"

I'm not sure how to say this. All I know is that I have to tell Spike. If anything, he can help me. But I am a coward.

"I just know."

"How do you explain yourself then?"


~ Spike ~
He chokes back a sob and doesn't answer. I am not known for my patience and this boy has grated on my last nerve.

"Xander, you *bit* me!" I thunder. I can't let up now, I have to know what is going on, maybe I’ll have to make decisions, take precautions.

The boy starts trembling, I so want to take him in my arms and make it go away, but after he bit me, after he…
"I know." He says so low I don't really hear it, only feel the movement of his jaw against my thigh.

Fuck this. I need answers, I need him to see why I am so angry with him, so I explode:

"Why the hell did you do that? You are the first human I ever *trusted* and you start a fight and bite me, even though you know I have the bloody chip in my head and can't defend myself!"

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Well, what do you think? I started posting here, coz I want some feedback/criticism before I bring it up on my site. If you find mistakes or think something is weird... let me know. For those who don't know it... I am non-native so it might sound strange sometimes. Sorry but as long as the grammar is right, I would like to keep it that way. Questions? Suggestions? Generally sucks?

Oh and I still need a title for this chapter...

More soon, if you want it.

Comments

[taligator.livejournal.com]

Oooh submissive Xander .. nice touch on that. I like the response from Spike after he's bitten, I think showing that biting vampires is a no-no is a unique turn because most stories it's this whole turn on for them (well, during sex anyway).

Spike is very angry and it seems incongruous with his previous behavior in the story, but as long as he has a really good reason it is doable.

Hmm .. I also enjoyed Xan's viciousness in the beginning because it is so uncharacteristic, yes it is incongruous, like Spike, but it (to me) fits better because there is a LOT going on in his head. High on blood, sex, and god knows what else.

Good job overall .. thanks!

[tabaqui]

Well damn.
I remember this but no well enough.
Gotta go read the past chapters over.
:)
*bounce*
I like this though!
But want more! Arrrgh!

[dancetomato.livejournal.com]

I am going to be tired tomorrow and it's all your fault. I hope you are proud of yourself. I hadn't seen this fic before, so I just sat here and read it all in one sitting. This is some beautiful, hot schmangst. I love the relationship you are building here. But now it's late and I'm all worked up. And I heart you for it.

i.e. Write more

[bloodroses27.livejournal.com]

Hi, I just finished reading this from start to, well, here. I really like it. It's a very interesting concept. I liked that you said Spike didn't go there before because he was afraid of leading the Initiative there. So many times authors forget to explain why he never used the resources they claim he had, drives me nuts. So kudos to you! This also a very interesting take on bring out Xander's repressed hyena. I like how he could smell the blood first, it makes sense in retrospect, but didn't give away what was happening. I can't wait to see where this goes next!

[adis723.livejournal.com]

I used to follow this story at AFF.net back before it started frustrating me to no end (the site, not the story.) So I had to go back and refresh my brain a bit and then I remember how much I liked it. And this chapter was good; the submissiveness, Spike's confused anger, Xander's insecurities. So good!

[kaydee23.livejournal.com]

Hmmmmm. This is a new idea you've brought up. A human bite is harmful to vampires. In other stories, it's just something erotic, so bravo to you to bring a twist to that. I won't that Trek person dealt with. He's really screwing things up for them.

I hope Spike will understand that Xander's hyena part bit him.

Why doesn't Spike manipulate Trek into disabling his chip? I bet he could. Then he can just dump him. That's rude, but he could do that. I think Trek could disable the chip.

[piksa.livejournal.com]

So nice to see an update on this story. Have been waiting for it after I read the previous parts. You should definitely continue this!

[druffine.livejournal.com]

OH thank you!

Great to see that all seems incongrous and confusing.
It'll get better, at least I hope so.

Glad you like vicious/submissive Xander. lol.

[druffine.livejournal.com]

*laughs out loud*

Either you have a real bad memory or my story is just boring/grey stuff that is forgotten as soon as you stop reading.

I could get you two more comments to this fic, where you said essential the same.

Great you want more though! There will be more soon.

[druffine.livejournal.com]

UH! Great! Thank you.

It's so wonderful to hear that people read my fic in one sitting, not able to stop.

More soon, I promise!

I remember a daddy!kink in your lj that I really enjoyed reading. It was in the beginning of my lj time and I don't think I commented, sorry. Good fic though!

[druffine.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much!

I am glad you enjoyed to read this and there will be more soon.

I also agree that often authors come up with Spike's resources out of the nowhere with no explaination why he hadn't used them before. I hoped that a little explanation is at least an explanation. *grins*

[druffine.livejournal.com]

before it started frustrating me to no end

Urgh. You got me there for a moment! Some people were really frustrated with the fic as the boys don't got to the hot sex right away.

I am very frustrated with the site too, therefore I began posting here as I really love the reviews/comments I receive and it tells me a lot about the things I still have to clarify.

Thanks very much for commenting. *hugs*

[druffine.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much for the comment.

I am sorry but I can't give you a hint if you are right or wrong with the ideas you brought up, it would spoil the fic maybe.

Glad you enjoy reading it.

[druffine.livejournal.com]

Thank you for reading and commenting!

I will definitely continue it, I am just a slow writer. Sorry.

[adis723.livejournal.com]

Some people were really frustrated with the fic as the boys don't got to the hot sex right away

Not me, I'm a big fan of plot and UST ;)

[tabaqui]

Sweetie, if there weren't pictures? I wouldn't remember half my life.
But hey! I get to read really cool fic again and again!
*snerk*

[taligator.livejournal.com]

Well, I think it's pretty great already, so to get better makes me even more excited ;)

[frk-werewolf.livejournal.com]

this story, all of it, is just HOT. i love how you alternate between each cahracter. it kinda makes the story have this strange humor to it, while still dealing with angst.

Thought I was free of the hyena.

when I read that line I nearly bounced around the room in squee-ing joy. Hyena!Xander is the sexiest thing ever made. and I ADORE epople who put it in their xander fics.

i can't WAIT for more!!

[druffine.livejournal.com]

Urgh.. your icon is sooo not worksafe! *fans herself* lol.

Thank you very much for the feedback, I am glad you liked it so far, hope that won't change with the ongoings of the story. *hides*

More soon, I promise, before the weekend.

[werewindle.livejournal.com]

Hyena!Xander, delicious. Spike/Xander such a hot pairing. I read the whole story in one sitting. I couldn't stop. I hope you have more soon.

Chapter 23

[cleeaz.livejournal.com]

Ooh, I love your Xander/Spike - Xander's obviously confused with the Hyena coming out. And Spike is out of loop. But love this so far. I'm hoping for more soon.

Cindy Lee